attention people!!! really important thing here!!!
gRaCe TaN's 14th birthday is on 28th novemember, next month!!!
*smiles sweetly- i want my presents, please!! ((check out my fully updated wishlist!)) hahas! i'm rock the bhb's world!!!

got the damn results back, and whooppiee doo! it's not that damn at all! in fact, it's the highest in my whole secondary life! i only failed 1 bloody subject! and it's more then 40 marks! can you actually belive that?!? i can't, am still getting over my shocks! *stares blankly at a white piece of paper while having a mini heart attack- "omg! omg! omg! did i get the wrong paper?!? omg! omg! ahhh!! *faints and crashes onto the floor-" okay, i'm weirding out again! lalala~

one thing i scared of is the facts that mid year is 40% included for the report book! god! my mid years really sucks! my results are sooo gonna get pulled down! ((the results screams,"ahhhh!! i'm falling!! helpp! ahhh! *crashes and dies, failed-")) okayy. i'm really have this screw that super loose in my head. so you just gotta bear with me. hahas! shall update you on the results next time!

school gonna end next friday! yeah! i can't wait! this sat got a family day thingy, yuckk! but have to go, compulsary! after that, i wanna go out!!! but no one's free to go with me. sad la, everyone is going out with someone else. i could go out with jazzy ((the teenage dinosaur with equal sides)) but she's skipping the family day to go out, so i can't go with her. oh well, i guess it'll be just me, myself and i, plus my computer. boringg! anyone out there who's reading this and going for the family day thingy and also free after that, can go out with me?? i promise i won't bite!! =))

ooh! did you hear about my human chocolate cheesecake?!? she's just sooo sweet!! i guess jazzy and lynnly and priss would be rolling their eyes when they see this, but who cares? i so gonna tell it again and again!!! Yesterday night, went to toa payo to go buy a new bag. no nice one though, so me and my mum decided to go eat sushi!! at the same thime, my mum ordered 2 cheesecake, both she wanted originals. while we were eating the waitress told us that there was only 1 original left, so my mum said okay, she wanted to think about what flavour to get; strawberry, chocolate, pandang or coffee! Then after we ate for a while, my mum went to the toliet.

here's the good part! that waitress, ohh! i think i forgotten to tell you that she was one hot bung with spikey spikey hair yeas? hahas! she asked me if me and my mum had choosen what flavour already. all i did was shurgs and smile sweetly at her. and suddenly she asked if i want to try it. i guess that's normal, bbut! here's the extra not-normal part! she had given me a whole big slice of the cake on a plate, which i know that it costs like, at least more then $2 cause it was on the menu. she said something about not supposed to give such a big size for smaple, but this time it was an exception. and she din charged us for it!! so sweet! after i ate a small part of it, she asked me if i liked it, and i was like,"nicee!" then she said that she prefered the chocolate one instead! god! she likes chocolate too!! omg! and then she asked me if i would like to try the chocolate too!! can you believe that? she was totally coming onto me!! but me mum came back soon, too soon for her to at least ask me for my phone number!! but i'm like, having an infactuation or so whatever it is spelled, with her!!! i was so so so happy this morning and like writing her name, which is jaye on the whiteboard and singing it all the time. maybe just thinking of her would help me in forgetting #21-. but sadly, out of sight, out of mind. it hard to think of her when i see #21- everyday. *sighh-

speaking of #21-, god! yesterday, in school, she seemed to show a little interest in me?!? okok, only a little. first! she was outside my class, talking to dunnoe hu, while i was crapping away with jazzy. when she went off, lynnly ((the "cool" rhombus)) came to me and jazzy and told me that she caught #21- staring at me!!! omg! but when #21- saw lynnly seeing her looking at me, she quickly shifted her gaze away from me! gosh! doesn't that mean that she is guilty?!? ooh! second!! in the gym, after getting some of our papers back, me and jazzy were in a playful fight, and i obviously winning!! doris was on my side too! jazzy had zero person on hers!! behind i saw #21- turning her head and looking at us, and she suddenly smiled a really wide smile that showed her teeth! and it couldn't be for anyone else she was smiling about cos only yolanda and gracia were behind us and they were looking at their papers, comparing i think. i kept avoiding looking at her eyes, in case she catches me in the act. hahas! but after that when we had the sex talk, she turned away. how horrid! but after all that she seems to be doing, i have a really huge question in my head. does she likes me too?!?

haish! one thing i had about i really hate about myself is my "boldness", or lack therefore!!! im not the type that would be willing to actually go up and tell her that i like her. but if she do tell me that one day, i swear i wouldn't do those avoidness thingy. its the most stupid and hurtful thing to do! i would most proberly spill my heart out to her instead. but i can't do that to her, i cant just go up and tell her that i like her. one, i still go for the guy-make-the-first-move tradition. two, i won't be able to take rejection. yuckk! i hate that 'r' word! it causes hurt and pain, how very horrid! humps!

i got this from lynnly's chinese comman test 4 paper, one of her many interesting doddles! "dodidumdedidodedummm... die dude!!!" funny crapp, hahas!

i still rememeber that i have a lot of things to write, bu i kindda forgotten what are those things. damn, but nememind. next time when i do rememeber, i shall edit this entry yeaps? *big wide grins- =))

close your eyes
give me your hand, darling
do you feel my heart beating
do you understand
do you feel the same
am i only dreaming
or is this burning
an eternal flame

guess that part of the song somehow or less described what im feeling now. my feelings of her. read something of her's just now. its exactly how i felt about the times of her and me, though i know its not implying on me, but let me dream and keep my hopes high. till the day it all comes crashing down on me, killing me softly. damnit, i miss her.

alrightys! have to run now, late. *sighs- tomollo still got school, and it'll be another day of boredom with nothing to do. i think they should let us off as holiday already, afterall, in school now we do nothing at all! haiz! forget it, gotta zhao. lovee yahs! =))

how i wish you would tell me you love me, then only would i be able to tell you the same.